The Adventures of the Black Girl in Her Search for God

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

A Dose of Cognitive Psychology (A Gender Exclusive Expose)

The conscience breaks all laws of metaphysics...to me at least. There’s nothing reasonable or tangible about man’s conscience. Even science continues to debate the idea of a mind behind a mind. Man’s conscience that alarms him when he has the slightest inkling of a glitch of system, proves that there is, in fact, a universal law of morality. So then, it is not the Republicans and the white male Christian evangelicals that are thrusting their opinion of the chains of religion and tradition on everyone.?!’;:%$#*

I believe, the first account of the working ability of man’s conscience is located in the book of Genesis. Adam, who was forewarned and instructed beforehand, was not so hasty to eat of the forbidden fruit. I believe that he was hesitant, but in the end, his reason and fleshy desire overcame the inward voice. So Adam then proves that a man is not necessarily motivated or moved by his conscious. Most people completely ignore their conscience or even jack it to the side as a state of self-pity, or even a counter-Casper haunting them.

I do not consider that man does not have a conscience. Evidence on the contrary would be the mass murderer, our aryan brothers and the like. What can we make of these? Possibly the constant suppression of their created conscience and the yielding to the evil. To say that they never had a conscience is to say that they were never a young child who knew that stealing the cookie out of the cookie jar was wrong, but they did it anyway.

The existence of a subjective experience has little – nothing to do with the conscience. If anything, it just proves its universality. I am different than you, you are different than he, he is different than she, they are different than we, but all of our conscience minds think that maybe that wasn’t the best decision we all made.

And then there are the Christians, who don’t know whether to call it the Holy Spirit or the Devil. The Christian is rather fortunate in that their conscience has a name: The Holy Spirit. And the distinguishing between the luring ability of the two is as simple as the Bible on your table, because the Holy Spirit will never contradict it. Isn’t it just like that pesky devil, to create a perversion of a God created conscience state? I mean he does do this with everything else so it should come as no surprise. (Sigh) Even now, as I write, the iniquitous conscience is exploiting my mind with notes in the key of “You’re a failure. You don’t deserve to be in any kind of Master’s program let alone a future at any institution to the likes of a seminary at Princeton. Even your writings are counterfeit. Your intelligence is artificial and you being called to do anything for God is a joke. Your track record is inconsistent and you roam around the earth like a silly child aimlessly searching for your “nitch”. There is no such thing, when it comes to you.” But even still there is another conscience still at work telling me that this is not true.

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