Mind Blogs: "one of Them"

My struggle...becoming one of them.
Just another preacher.
Just another minister
of the gospel I laid claim, stealing His name
running
chasing after the fame
chasing after the prestige of being “THE chosen one, called of God.”
Just another preacher whipping up a good ole’ sermon to get the crowd stirred
and a few wet eyes on the altar to confirm my gift
Another
Holy Ghost havin’
whoppin’
hollerin’
high heel wearin’
TBN preachin’
woman of God
deceived into believing that the greater the show I put on, the greater the move of God.

“He’s here ladies and gentlemen! Ohhhh, He’s here in this place!”
My face is changing.
My moods deranging.
On the verge of losing self
fearing daily that I’ll soon become what it is that I despised:
Typical.
Becoming one with the text and not with the word that was made flesh.
I struggle.